Crush

Assalamualaikum.

* Grrr tadi dah typing tapi hilang, terus takde dalam draft. Kuangjaqq.

Takpayah nak terang berjela amende tu 'crush', cari sendiri ok. For me, its normal to have someone to crushed on, wah crushed on, macam main langgaw (melaka) je. But am only have one to two person to be crushed on in my phase of life. Not being judge but orang lain tu setiap kali terpandang terus crush uols.

When I was in kindergarden, dah start uols crush crush, tapi mase tu tak panggil crush la, mak panggil pakwe. Haha. Suke pon sebab dia pandai azan and selalu baca doa makan time rehat. I dont really remember him, haiyoo its been more than 18years la, miracle sangat kalau masih ingat. Tapi seingatnya, in my class, tak ramai pon boys. Oppss.

Naik secondary school, mase darjah 1-2 memang lost sangat memory. Kindergarten ade lah ingat sesikit, phase ni folder memory corrupted. Blank, kosong. Rasanya mase dah senior senior like darjah 4-6 baru start kot suke suke ni, pakwe makwe ni. One of the boy is my classmates, another one boy from next class. Siap share kat geng geng, eh suke lah kat die, datang geng yang kaki nganjing, 'eh kau, ain suke kau lah'. Gelinyeee. Haha budak lagi sorang tu, he's Indian tapi bukan main hensem putih mangi. Hahaha.

Naik high school, pon rasenya tak ramai, sebabnya pembawakan budak budak dari secondary school. Same school dari kecik, apekah nak terjatuh cintun plak kan. Rasa macam sumbang mahram. Hahahha over. Hmmm ke takde crush ehh, crushed kat cikgu praktikal ade lahh, eh? Haha. Plus aku pun sibuk menjadi gila babas time tu plus geng geng dengan budak jantan je ramai, so percentage utk fall in love adalah tipis. Form 1-4 adalah zaman menyetan ye uols, kena sebat depan crowd kat perhimpunan, denda duk luar sebab tak buat homework or bising is normal. Cabut sekolah g mandimanda kat waterfall akan berlaku 4 to 5 times per month. Takkan lah aku nak fefeeling dengan mereka itu, cannot.

Naik ke form 6 pulak, lower 6 macam little bit lost sebab takde geng oi. Geng nyetan sume taknak masuk form6. Dahla lost, 5 month je pulak, and student pun majority aku kenal so no chance to fefeeling. Fefeling kek senior ado lah kot. Agaknya lah. No importanto.

Haaa masuk U lah baru official crushed. Fefeeling pun kat guy yang pepandai, smart smart. Berwawasan sangat impian iols. Dulu suke guy yang messy, terejal, bad boys. No more ok. 1 guy ni from 1st sem jatuh feeling. Ala ala ustad gitu. Warak. Selalu  bilal, imam. Wahh, kalau dalam class tu ter'bententang mata, malam tu tidur dalam senyum woii. Sampai sanggup aku join 1 event ni sebab that fuller organizer, gigihhh. Ku paksakan si Qis tu join. Haha. Unofficial crushed pon ada je, senior lagi, kemain hot, lagi lagi tengok on Monday or Friday. Monday because they will put on their tie or blazer, on Friday, cuci mata dekat cafe, selepas diorang balik semayang jumaat. Perghhh.

Currently no more crushed on. Plus macam dah tak relevant sebab macam dah tua je. Kalau crush terus jadi milikku takpe jugeks.

Laterss.

" I don't always have a crush, but when I do, they're getting married. "