Opposite sex - best friends.

Assalamualaikum.

Few days ago mase duk ralit scroll down FB news feed, terjumpa one screenshot conversation between bestfriends, opposite sex-bestfriend. Ape yang buat aku tertarik is the caption "inilah jadinya bila bestfriend kau seorang lelaki..". As you guys can see the attached pic here, that girl nak meluahkan problem dia to her bestfriend which is a guy. Nampak cute kan?But in reality, for my case, its totally different.

I do have few guy bestfriend. Biase lah fomfuan kasor plus bbw macam iols ni, stock buat bestfriend je der. HAHA. Yang stock stock comeylotey, keayuan tu semua stock buat awek kan. Yes I is faham. But I do glad that I have them as my bestfriend, we can talk dirty without feel ashamed or guilty, we can rely when we have problem with our motorcycle, part ni untuk aku je la, we can share something loveydovey yang sesuai untuk di share dengan girl yang bukan awek (tak sesuai share sesame lelaki, dikuatiri kedengaran gay-ish), etc.

People said that we can't be bestfriend with someone that opposite sex, because they said any relationship that included opposite sex members will lead to a romantic relationship. Yes it might be happen but surely not for me, I mean tengoklah aku macamane plus diorang ni over taste tinggi melangit so, there's no chance at all that we can fall in love with each other. LOL sangat. Plus am the type of person that hardly falls in love especially to someone that I know for a long time. Like hello aku kenal baik buruk atas bawah luar dalam, camno la den nak terfalling in love nye?

Plus for my case, they're all occupied, means they're not single. Kitorang rapat pon even before diorang ni in relationship. But still they can share anything including their relationship prob/stories etc. Macam borak kedai kopi gitu ah. Yang nak bagitau different ape yang jadi dengan attached pic with my case is diorang yang mengadu domba, meluah rasa. Pulaknya jenis yang meluahrasa bukan boleh main message/whatsapp tapi kena bercakap, kena call, kena dengar suara.

Frankly speaking, bestfriend (guy) pulak jenis emotional lebih, kang lambat angkat or bila kredit habis and tak call back kate kite ni taknak layan problem die, hadoii. Bace macam cute kan, tapi nak melayan tuuu, pusing kaplaa. Siap keluar ayat "dahla Ain, ko macam taknak reply je, sorry susahkan kau, yada yada". Mak is stress. Yela dulu zaman study kadangkadang busy kesini kesitu kan. Lambat reply mase emo conversation, dah cakap kite taknak layan. Kadangkadang pulak call pukul 2-3 pagi semate mate suruh dengar die main gitar, lagu dituju untuk awek tapu pakse aku dengar. Grrrr.

Tapi its ok, bila teringat balik rasa kelakar sangat, and I happy that I'm always there for them. Takdapat tolong settle problem tapi jadi telinga untuk dengar masalah pun ok what. As long as they're feel better, I'm a happy to help. Here's few tips for this kind of friendship :

1. Keep a logic distance.

- Janganlah duk mesej/call/berkepit 24/7. Kang bila orang cakap 'eh korang ni ehem ehem ke' kan dah awkward, plus awkward situation makes people separate tho. Plus nanti patner dia or patner kite pikir bukan bukan. Tak bagus.

2. Be reminded that we're not here for occupied their heart.

- Na-ah! Stick to friendship rules.

3. Stay away from awkward conversation.

- Ade kan benda benda awkward yang tak sesuai dikongsi and better keep it by our self. So dont share, refer to no.1, awkward situation makes people separate. Yelah kau dah termalu malu teruslah malu nak share benda lain kan.

Thats all. Panjang akak bebel.

Hasta manyana !

Cryin'

Assalamualaikum.

When I decide to move out from Kl, I left everything behind. Love, life, job & friends. I never regret whatever happens. Semuanya ade hikmah, cepat atau lambat, sedar or tak sedar je. Ye aku bersyukur. I will more in the future, Insyallah.

Tak sangka dah almost 1 year. Rase macam baru semalam je. Bangun pepagi 740am, mandi pakai baju tunggu 820am, turun tunggu rapid, beli breakfast, bukak office, ngadap kerja nonstop sampai 620pm. Balik kerja around 630pm, tunggu rapid, lalu jejantas, tapau dinner, sampai rumah mandi, tidur. The same routine for 1 year plus.

Within that time, I met J. Since we live in the same area, different condo, I met him almost every night. After work, he will drop by to see me, to send me food. Either we went out or just lepak in  condo compound. Talk about everything, fights every second. Sometimes bila Qis came for a visit, we lepak together.

Finally I left.

But we never stop keep in touch, still updating whatever happen in our new life without met. Until on the night of my birthday, he wanted to do video call. On the 1st 30 second, both of us just smiling at each other, checking each other face, stare eyes. And we talked, like we used to.

The moment after I ended the call, I cried. Teresak esak. Sampai tersedu. I just dont know why. And terus text Qis, tell her what happen and when she ask 'kenapa kau nangis?', I replied, 'aku rindu,. Then tidur esok bangun mate bengkak sikit.

And last night, he texts me. I told him that am not feeling well, and he wanted to visit me. And we talk talk talk until I ask him, 'what u want from me, J?', he replied,

'I want u back to me'.

Aku? Sambung nangis lah.

Another Year, Another Cake

Assalamualaikum.

Since I realize that people dont read blog anymore, I think I dont have post more frequent. Aku sendiri pun dah tak selalu blogwalking, semua fav blogger pon dah tak selalu post. Yang gigih post every two days tu memang respect okay. Nowdays dah banyak medium untuk share your writing like facebook, twitter and kadangkadang wechat. But seriously, the feel tak sama like how we wrote in blog. No limit words, space and reader.

Haiyoo, bebel pasal orang tak baca blog pon dah se-perenggan.

3 days ago was my birthday and automatically my mom's too ! Happy birthday Mak. Nothing much, just hi tea on the evening for 2 slide SR cakes and at night, Angah bought pizza and ice cream cake! Yeayyy. Dah lama tak celebrate with Mak on the actual date. Yelah dulu masa belajar for sure ade kat Muadzam and last 2 years kat Kl. Anddd pagi tuu awkward sangat nak wish kat Mak. But like always, pelakon hebat katenyerr, relaks je. Lepas mandi terus peluk mak and wish.

Kemain Mak, malam mase potong cake die pakai jubah. Iols dengan baju kelawarnya ditambah dengan cardigan sejibik macam bibik. Thanks Angah !

Ikh'1

Assalamualaikum.

The truth about me is aku sangat mementingkan friendship sampaikan kadangkadang orang pijakkan kepala aku pun aku buat relaks. Ape yang penting untuk aku is we're still friends. For me, friends is everything. Sampaikan sekecil kecil manusia yang aku pernah mingle around pun aku boleh ingat like forever walaupun orang tu takdenye ingat aku selepas tu.

Time sekolah memang aku mingle around, dengan sepandai2 budak and sekurang pandai budak. Every each person aku ingat woi tapi nowdays, bila jumpa kat luar, dia boleh buat bodoh je. Takpayah ko tegurpeluk aku bagai, ko senyum kat aku pun aku dah appreciate sangat.

Plus aku ingat lagi time sekolah dulu aku je lah jadi organizer untuk gather kan budakbudak ni padahal diorang ni haramm nak datang. Yang memang betul2 rapat tu memang mati ah kalau tak join. And even lepas abis spm pun aku banyak kali plan and ada yg jadi la even yang datang sejempuit. Orang kata alah bisa tegal biasa, means aku dah tak sentap lah kalau ramai tak join.

Yang buat amuk tu bila bertahun tak jumpa then tetiba ade yang munyik 'eh, bila nak reunion, eh bila nak jumpa ramai'. E'eh dia ni kang aku bahasa kan, marah pulak. Time orang buat ko banyak hal alasan.

But now, aku dah kecikkan circle aku. Aku mingle or keep in touch dengan orang yang betul2 appreciate  what's the friends is all about. Senang. Tak stress. Less drama. For what kau nak simpan ramai2 yang ko tau esok lusa diorang takdenye dengan kau.

Ingat lagi last month, lepak dengan Dayu. Tup tup masuk cerita pasal si polan bin si polan ni kawen. Dayu punya lah duk terangkan fullname, class mana, selalu lepak dengan siapa, aku tak boleh recall langsung sampai kan Dayu cakap ' eh, pelik ni ko tak ingat orang'. Funniehh.

Sebenarnya nak bagitau ade orang rindu kat aku. Tu je. Tapi story meleret leret pulak. Kite pon rindu awak gak. Terus kite tukar whatsapp profile pic dengan awak. Suweett la awak ni tapi kekedang benci sampai rasa nak bunuh je awak ni. Rindu ko gak, Wan!

#QishNikman

Assalamualaikum.

Bismillah. This post will be an emotional post ever. The major things that I hate be in a relationship that, I'll be losing them. Tak kira la love relay ke, friendship ke. Cerita dah basi pun, but untuk mententeramkan hati sendiri, tahan dulu cerita ni.

My crime patner is married !

Taktau nak act happy or teruja or sedih when she told me that she will be someone's wifey. Like she said, both of us bukan stay kl lagi, so tak rasa sangat. Memang ah tapiiiii... Sedih but deep in my heart, I will always pray for ur happiness.

I know her while both of us study in Uniten. June 2010. Muka bapak kerek plus ada lah issues yang makes me tak berkenan dengan minah ni. Propa sangat issue tu ok! Then macam biasa la, girlssss kan. Gaduh baik gaduh baik gaduh baik sampai lah ke last sem.

Habis belajar terpisah jap then she move to kl while am already in kl like half year. Start balik lah crimes story. Then dua2 berenti kerja and balik kampung masing2 and suddenly now she's married!

Nok, I know am not the best person u ever met, am not the great friend u ever had and I know how annoying I could be sometimes but I will always here and u will always in my heart. Thanks for everything, emo aku, marah aku, bebel aku, jahat aku, mulut aku yang semua kau tahan.

Selamat Pengantin Basi, nok.

May Allah blessed your marriage and live happily ever after with Nikman. Jangan gegaduh, jangan memarah, jangan nenangis. Sabar with all those rintangan yang dah or sedang or bakal.

Rewind

Assalamualaikum.

If only I can rewind back to 15 month ago, I will let my self know,

That I'll be losing you.

That everything isn't the same no more.

That I'll making the hardest decision ever.

That I keep thinking about you all the time.

That I'm hardly move on.

Don't fall in love.

But,

I never regret. And if I could, I will keep rewind and repeat those 15 month moment. I know, one fine day I will completely move on and forget about you, but for now, you are the wonderful partner I ever met.

I don't need remote control, because everyone know that Him already planned well for each of us. Take care wherever you are, my heart.

Nov 23, 2014  21:35

Him : I miss seeing you. Good night

Crush

Assalamualaikum.

* Grrr tadi dah typing tapi hilang, terus takde dalam draft. Kuangjaqq.

Takpayah nak terang berjela amende tu 'crush', cari sendiri ok. For me, its normal to have someone to crushed on, wah crushed on, macam main langgaw (melaka) je. But am only have one to two person to be crushed on in my phase of life. Not being judge but orang lain tu setiap kali terpandang terus crush uols.

When I was in kindergarden, dah start uols crush crush, tapi mase tu tak panggil crush la, mak panggil pakwe. Haha. Suke pon sebab dia pandai azan and selalu baca doa makan time rehat. I dont really remember him, haiyoo its been more than 18years la, miracle sangat kalau masih ingat. Tapi seingatnya, in my class, tak ramai pon boys. Oppss.

Naik secondary school, mase darjah 1-2 memang lost sangat memory. Kindergarten ade lah ingat sesikit, phase ni folder memory corrupted. Blank, kosong. Rasanya mase dah senior senior like darjah 4-6 baru start kot suke suke ni, pakwe makwe ni. One of the boy is my classmates, another one boy from next class. Siap share kat geng geng, eh suke lah kat die, datang geng yang kaki nganjing, 'eh kau, ain suke kau lah'. Gelinyeee. Haha budak lagi sorang tu, he's Indian tapi bukan main hensem putih mangi. Hahaha.

Naik high school, pon rasenya tak ramai, sebabnya pembawakan budak budak dari secondary school. Same school dari kecik, apekah nak terjatuh cintun plak kan. Rasa macam sumbang mahram. Hahahha over. Hmmm ke takde crush ehh, crushed kat cikgu praktikal ade lahh, eh? Haha. Plus aku pun sibuk menjadi gila babas time tu plus geng geng dengan budak jantan je ramai, so percentage utk fall in love adalah tipis. Form 1-4 adalah zaman menyetan ye uols, kena sebat depan crowd kat perhimpunan, denda duk luar sebab tak buat homework or bising is normal. Cabut sekolah g mandimanda kat waterfall akan berlaku 4 to 5 times per month. Takkan lah aku nak fefeeling dengan mereka itu, cannot.

Naik ke form 6 pulak, lower 6 macam little bit lost sebab takde geng oi. Geng nyetan sume taknak masuk form6. Dahla lost, 5 month je pulak, and student pun majority aku kenal so no chance to fefeeling. Fefeling kek senior ado lah kot. Agaknya lah. No importanto.

Haaa masuk U lah baru official crushed. Fefeeling pun kat guy yang pepandai, smart smart. Berwawasan sangat impian iols. Dulu suke guy yang messy, terejal, bad boys. No more ok. 1 guy ni from 1st sem jatuh feeling. Ala ala ustad gitu. Warak. Selalu  bilal, imam. Wahh, kalau dalam class tu ter'bententang mata, malam tu tidur dalam senyum woii. Sampai sanggup aku join 1 event ni sebab that fuller organizer, gigihhh. Ku paksakan si Qis tu join. Haha. Unofficial crushed pon ada je, senior lagi, kemain hot, lagi lagi tengok on Monday or Friday. Monday because they will put on their tie or blazer, on Friday, cuci mata dekat cafe, selepas diorang balik semayang jumaat. Perghhh.

Currently no more crushed on. Plus macam dah tak relevant sebab macam dah tua je. Kalau crush terus jadi milikku takpe jugeks.

Laterss.

" I don't always have a crush, but when I do, they're getting married. "

#Tips : Move On after Break Up

Finally..

My role as side chick END. After almost 1 year, wonderful moment. May he live happily with his family. I'm recovery-ing, still on going. We're end this 'connection' calmly, both side (read : me and him) agree. I think its the right time to do that since I'm no longer in KL. Allah Maha Besar, He knows to arrange everything. Alhamdulillah.

May my heart and my self strong enough to move on!

So, as for my self too, here's the tips to MOVE ON AFTER BREAK UP. 

1. CONVINCING YOUR MIND

You are strong! Your life should not be ruined just because someone has decided to leave you. It’s his/her lost, not yours. Set your mind for this matter and you won’t be that hurt. You can face the break up once you have set your mind to say that you are a tough person and this breaking up thing is not a big deal for you. It becomes the right step for trying to move on.

Yeah, my phase now. Keep telling my self that I'm strong, I can do it. It's not last. It's okay. LOL 

2. FACE THE REALITY

Imagine about how much sacrifice you have done to save your relationship with your loved one but eventually, thick wall hits you like a bam! It is understandable that you are hurt. But, it does not mean that you need to end up like that. Yes, bad things happen for sure. Even for the most romantic and harmonious couple, at last, the relationship needs to be over. You just need to face the reality for it.

I faced with reality before I make decision to leave him. So, it's done!

3. KEEP YOURSELF BUSY AT WORK

Distraction is always the greatest therapy for any feeling either good or bad. In this case, you are going to use the distraction to shift your attention aside from the broken heart feeling. Do your job, focus on it. Or you can also do something you like (i.e. your hobby). It will make it easier for you to move on.

Can't do this fer now. Since I'm not working, but I'm glad that I far away, so that I wouldn't go back to him. Cheers!

4. THROWING AWAY SOME STUFF

Yep, you can start by throwing away some stuff but please do not comprehend it as a justification to throw and breaking things that you have. Instead, you need to throw the stuffs you got from your ex boyfriend and girlfriend. This is really important. How can you move on if the things from your ex lover are still lingering around you? It’s pointless. If you want to put an end to your misery, get rid of those things. At the same time, say to yourself that you are also done with those stuffs (and your leftover feelings for your ex lover).

Not yet. Not yet.

5. MAKING THE NEW RELATIONSHIP

Another effective method for this moving on tips is to seek for the new one. Perhaps, it might sound cheap but it is not! What is meant here is not always about to seek for a new lover. You can simply start by befriending with the other people first. Open yourself to the others. Get closer to them. And if you can really find someone BETTER than your ex, do not hesitate to take the chance!

Not yet.

notatumit : That's all for now. YEAH I CANT DO THE 4TH & 5TH. NOT YET.

Fast

Salam.

Fast post yer. Without double check, without using brain at all.

Sumpah,

Dulu aku duk benci bila orang quotes 'Cinta itu buta', dalam hati plus mulut, apesal pulak. Xde otak ke apa buat statement macam tu. Boleh avoid kan, mengada-ngada je lebih. Danggggg, but now, damn! I'm being tied with my old words, telan hamek kau!

It's uncontrollable.

Unplanned, unexpected, etc.

Memang boleh elak der, tapi sekali kau dah terjatuh dalam lubang dalam, selain kau cuba sedaya upaya, sekuat mungkin and finally boleh punya. Tapi as we know, its too hard babe. Kekadang kita haus gila pun, setakat nak pergi dapur bukak peti pun malas gila.

But, bila kena macam ni bukan kira malas tak malas der, perghh nak usaha tu kira macam luah mati mak, telan mati bapak. Kau luah pun kau sakit, kau telan pun kau merana and finally ko decide nak kemamkan aje. Tak pikir panjang kan, asal boleh.

Sakit oi, sakit. 

Someone

Assalamualaikum. Hi peeps,

WARNING : THIS POST WILL BE SUCH AN ANNOYING POST!

I do be friend will all kind of people. Sometimes I fall in love but not with someone who I be friend with. Rarely I'll will in love with my friends, macam pelik pulak. Kawan kawan then jatuh cinta. Tapi ada je kan, kalau dah jodoh tak kemana. But still selagi boleh elak, I will not fall in love with someone who I know well. Friends just like cloth that you like, you will wear it all the time but you will not bring it to bed. Paham tak? It's okay, biar aku faham sendiri.

I was seen as tough, strong, brave but actually I was someone who easy fall in love. But unfortunately, I'm also someone who can easy break the feelings. Mudah jatuh cinta dan mudah untuk melupakan. That's why I'm seen as strong without crying-drama-thingy.

The latest, I've be friend with some-three-one (read : seorang dua), 1st guy is someone boyfie, 2nd guy is single but I can't live with him in future and 3rd guy was someone I know back days. All this three guys be friend with me as who I am, back days, now days, and in the future (maybe). Aku bukan tamak, but ada pepatah kan, berkawan biar seribu. After the 4years relationship doesn't make out, I just can't in love in this time being.

This 1st guy is the most closest guy with me. We doing all the craziest thing together, we try all the good food together, we go thru hard time together, unfortunately, for me and for him, he has girlfriend. I will not let him let go that girl because of me, because I know someday, he will do that to me. So, we just declare our relationship as 'friends'.

I miss the Ipoh trip, I miss the Penang trip, I miss the Genting trip at 3am and will miss the Cameron trip at 12pm. This is all the craziest thing we have go thru. Driving to somewhere place like no one business, like-we-dont-have-to-work-tomorrow. I just missed it.

Mingle with all your family members, without plan, is awesome. Be the one who can lend the arms when you crying of your father's death. I dunno either me or your girlfriend be the one who selfish. I just dunno.

notatumit : Now you guys can see how biases I am with these three guys. Sayang tak semestinya bersatu, kan?

Rindu letteww

Assalamualaikum.

Its been a while I'm not writing here. Rindu tak? Mestilah rindu nak mencaruts kat sini. Tapi atas sebab kekangan masa semua, tak dapek den nak merepek kat sini. Working life being so nice, even though lately ni stressful sangat.

A while?

Ya. After 2.5 weeks me and him didn't meet each other, last night be the night. Walaupun ada drama sentap-airmata lastly berjumpalah kami. Alhamdulillah. Meets without any official planning at all. Texting, calls then meet up.

Me : Hi. Bila you nak hantar balik barang I?

Him : Hi. Takmau lah. I nak simpan.

Me : Gila ke?

Him : Biarlah.

After 10min he's call. Will pick me up at 8pm. So after settle up my work, 7pm bergegaslah balik. Nak mandi mandi siap siap wangi wangi. Mandi dengan hati berbunga plus senyum ke telinga. Then iron tudung, after that, terpikir pulak ;

 Me : You nak bawak I keluar ke nak hantar barang je?

Him : Hantar barang. ( That's all !!)

Me : I lapar ni

Him : You pegi makan dgn housemate you. I esok kerja pagi. Penat

Kan dah bagitau ada drama sentap-airmata. Rasa menyesal iron tudung, siap siap. Then 830pm he's call bagitau dah sampai, ada kat bawah. Then dengan hati sentap, tukar seluar (jeans->palazo), t-shirt plus shawl. Sampai kat kereta bukak pintu belakang amek barang, tutup pintu.

'' Hey, laa tak siap lagi. Kate lapar ''
 

Ngehngehngeh. Happy!

Notatumit : He's not mine. He's someone else boyfie. Sayang tak semestinya bersama kan?

Dr. Love?

Assalamualaikum.

Hi peeps,

Weekend ini hanya melepak dirumah saja, still cepat je masa berlalu, macam 'Eh, esok dah isnin, dah kena kerja'. Alahai time goes faster lately ni. Sampai tak terkejar pulak. Last week, whole week busy semacam, tak cukup tangan kaki semua. Seriously, time time macam ni lah rindu rumah kat Kluang, rindu time time belajar dulu, rindu ahhhh!

Ok2 focus untuk post kali ini!

Dr. Love? Who's Dr. Love? Dalam post kali ni aku lah Dr. Love tapi part time saje, tolong kawan kawan. Siapa la kita kalau payah sangat bagi pertolongan, ye ke dak? Seriously, terdetik dalam hati, bullshit aku boleh jadi Dr. Love, masalah cinta sendiri pun tak terungkai. Ini kan pula mau selesai masalah orang. Macam omputih cakap, practice make perfect, tapi situasi aku sekarang ini, bukan practice but advice. Atleast, my advice could make someone feel better right?

For my friend situation, dia dah tersepit. Antara perasaan dan kawan, masa awal awal dia story aku pun macam nak ter'judge dia but still aku kena jadi orang tengah, bukan main dengan emosi sendiri. Amik yang positive, kau tak perlu korban perasaan dan korban kawan. Serabut kan? Siapa suruh main dengan api?

Nasihat aku satu, tanya pada diri sendiri. Kalau kau rasa kau takboleh lupakan A, lepaskan B dengan cara elok. B tu kawan, jangan sampai tindakan kau boleh putus kawan dengan si B. Haha. Aku pun taktau nak leraikan macam mana. Still both keputusan kau, aku respect bro. Kau matang, macam abang2, sebab tu aku sayang ko, Dan!

notatumit : Semoga advice aku bagi kesan kat kau,  Dan!



Kau kata, aku kata

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Kau kata kau anggap aku kawan,
 
Tapi bila hp kau berbunyi tanda incoming call kau tak nak angkat. Sanggup tukar mode vibrate. Hp kau vibrate macam nak meletup pun kau buat tak endah. Bila suruh jawab call kata benda tak penting. Dari vibrate kau change mode silent lepastu masuk hp dalam poket. Langsung tak menganggu hal kita.

Kau kata kau anggap aku kawan,
 
Tapi bila on the phone kemain menyorok. Kalau boleh nak duduk dalam almari. Bila kantoi dengan aku tengah gayut sanggup campak hp ke celah kangkang. End call macam tu je. Bila aku bukak pintu kereta, kemain pucat lagi muka kau. Kalau lempang time tu sure bentuk tapak tangan tu jelas. Kemain berubah muka kau. Kenapa tah.

Kau kata kau anggap aku kawan,
 
Tapi bila whatsapp, text masuk berduyun-duyun kau tak reply. Kau biar macam tu je. Bila aku kata kenapa tak reply, kau diam. Kau tukar topic.

Kau kata kau anggap aku kawan,
 
Tapi bila aku mintak hantar sana sini kau ikut je rentak aku. Sampai pihak lagi satu ajak keluar pun kau tak pergi. Kau bagi alasan ada kerja. Padahal kau keluar dengan aku tu bukan hal kerja.

Kau kata kau anggap aku kawan,
 
Tapi bila nak decide benda yang important, kau cari aku. Kau bukan minta pendapat aku, tapi macam mintak izin. Sampai satu tahap bila aku kata tak payah pergi, kau tak pergi. Bila aku kata benda tu okay, kau buat. Bila aku tanya kenapa nak tanya aku sebab itu soal hidup kau, kau kata saje.

Kau kata kau anggap aku kawan,

Tapi balik keje selalu jugak kau whatsapp aku. Tak cukup kat office, sambung menyakat kat whatsapp. Kekadang aku baru selangkah masuk rumah, whatsapp kau masuk. Memalam buta kalau aku whatsapp pun kau reply. Walaupun aku rasa kau ni bukan kaki melayan benda-benda macam tu.

Kau kata kau anggap aku kawan,

Tapi semua benda yang kau buat tu tak macam kawan. Lebih dari kawan. Aku tak bodoh nak beza layan kawan dengan layan orang lebih dari kawan.

Aku pun kata aku anggap kau kawan,

Tapi bila nampak kau on the phone, berasap jugak kepala aku. Panas jugak hati aku. Rasa macam nak rentap hp kau baling time tu jugak.

Aku pun kata aku anggap kau kawan,

Tapi bila ada incoming call kat hp kau, aku pura-pura suruh kau jawab. Padahal dalam hati menyumpah seranah sebab sibuk kacau masa kita. Celaka apa tak reti nak call time lain ke.

Aku pun kata aku anggap kau kawan,

Tapi bila text dengan whatsapp masuk kat hp kau, aku jeling-jeling jugak tengok apa yang tulis. Nampak jugaklah sebarang dua ayat. Sakit hati tu jangan cakap.

Aku pun kata aku anggap kau kawan,

Tapi malam-malam bila bosan aku whatsapp kau jugak. Macam kau buat ke aku bila balik keje. Walaupun aku tahu kau kat luar dan whastapp aku tak delivered, tapi aku bodoh jugak pegi whatsapp. Pehal tah. Kau pun tak kira pukul berapa kau sampai rumah, whatsapp aku yang tadi aku hantar baru masuk ke hp kau, kau still reply. Aku pun kekadang dah membuta time tu. Haha.

Aku pun kata aku anggap kau kawan,

Tapi aku curi-curi jugak geledah hp kau. Tengok contact list, phone log, whatsapp, inbox dan segala macam benda yang boleh aku tengok. Berderau jugak jantung aku bila bukak.

Aku pun kata aku anggap kau kawan,

Tapi bila kau takde depan mata, tercari-cari jugak aku. Otak dah fikir ke lain je. Padahal kekadang kau membuta tak bangun lagi atau kau ada kerja luar.

Aku pun kata aku anggap kau kawan,

Tapi cara aku layan kau pun kekadang tak macam kawan. Dan aku pun tahu kau tak bodoh sampai tak boleh beza layan kawan dengan lebih dari kawan cemana. 

Kau kata kita kawan. Aku pun kata kita kawan. Tapi kita tak macam kawan. Bila orang tanya, kita kata kita kawan. Walaupun orang luar dapat agak dan tahu, tapi kita jawab macam diorang tu bodoh. Kita pun kekadang macam bodohkan diri sendiri. Sebab dalam hati cuma kita je tahu, kita ni kawan ke lebih dari kawan. Cuma kita tak tahu macam mana nak rungkai perasaan tu. Sampai satu masa kita ikut macam omputih kata, go with the flow. Mungkin macam kita dua pernah cakap,

Kalau ada jodoh, ada lah. Kalau takde, kita redha.

Sadness

notatumit : takde dah kata kata. take care korang  ;'(

Uniten's Final Year Student yaww !

Assalamualaikum. Holaaaa !

How's your early 2013? Mine are going sooo well. Bahagia. Cuma stress sikit pasalnya sekarang tengah finale exam. Exam TERAKHIR untuk final student @UNITEN. Alaahai sedih bangett! Actually post ni aku nak story pasal photo-shot untuk final student, degree batch kitorang. 

Al-kisahnya on 4th Jan haritu, pagi, aku ade Japan Festival. Student yang amek Japan kena presentation bagai then 3pm tu pulak join ED punye gathering, berlepaking la dengan si camera-man a.k.a Fahmi. Then discuss2 sikit then terus decide nak buat photo-shot hari tu jugak, halo halo sipenkepoh semua, then berjumpa lah kite @Muadzam Hollywood. 

Bende photo-shot ni pon setelah berkurunnya merancang baru la akhirnyaa terlaksana. Alhamdulillah. Wiwiwiwi

Adalah malas untuk men'Captionkan gambar yang berlambak ini ye. Harap maaf

Then esoknya setelah di campur darab bahagi tolak, ade yang tak join plus shoot ada yang tidak memuaskan, so ada sesi kedua pulak. Location at Padang Golf Pinggir Pelangi & Wisma KSHAS. 6pm until 8pm. Plus makanmakan bagai. Alahai sayu pulak tengok gambargambar semua. Gonna leaving them....

Lupa pulak nak mention/iklan sikit. Nice kann picture nih semua. Photographer import from WAKISA ! Thanks Fahmi. Aku kawen nanti sponsor macam nih ye. Daaa.............

notatumit ; Sayuuu oih..

Appreciate

I miss everything about the beach from the sands between my toes to the mighty sound of the ocean crashing against the rocks; it is there where I found my serenity.

I miss the sun raise to the sun fall at the beach, where its true colors have this wonderfully glow right at the point of when the sun touches the water.

I miss the smell of the salted water when the wind blows, I miss the way the sun feels when it caress my face, it has this magical warmth.

notatumit : In love love love love !

Happier

Lonely .

Its just come whenever I looking at your weds picture. Your face was so happy, like I used to see back years ago. Damn I miss how we are back days.

Not all relationships will last forever and a good way to continue...

Dear Abi,

" You were my siren you drew me in, you taught me to love and you taught me to sin, I never thought you could break my heart, but I guess we were wrong right from the start "

notatumit : Selamat Pengantin Baru, I guess it's time me to move on.

4th

 

 

 

It's has been 4 years of US. Damn really hard to stay till now. I just know that I'm really not matured enough while get thru with this kind of relationship. I'm so sorry.

 

 

Happy 4th year.

 

 

 

notatumit : Long journey more to go !

Lala's Reception

Assalamualaikum.

My best friend going to leave :(

Congratulation sayang. Walau kau jauh di mata, di hati tetap ada. Wahh Ain !

Satu per satu best friend semua dah kawen. Alahai sayu je. Takde dah hang out macam dulu. Kekangan macam2. Going to miss them. Aku hanya mampu doakan korang bahagia dunia akhirat. Korang yang kena doakan aku cepat kawen, eh cepat jumpa jodoh dulu. AMINNN ! 

Solemnization  - 9 Sept -

Reception

Outdoor 

notatumit : I love you guys. Be strong !

Addict - The One That Got Away

Assalamualaikum.

Hey, I'm on sem break right now. Macam biasa lah, dah bosan bosan baru lah datang mood nak bukak blog. Hehe. Btw, now I'm addicted to this song ;

The One That Got Away - Katy Perry

Summer after high school when we first met

We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead

And on my 18th Birthday

We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor

And climb to the roof

Talk about our future

Like we had a clue

Never planned that one day

I'd be losing you

In another life

I would be your girl

We'd keep all our promises

Be us against the world

In another life

I would make you stay

So I don't have to say

You were the one that got away

The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash

Never one without the other we made a pact

Sometimes when I miss you

I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed

Saw you downtown singing the Blues

It's time to face the music

I'm no longer your muse

All this money can't buy me a time machine

Can't replace you with a million rings 

I should've told you what you meant to me

'Cause now I pay the price

notatumit : Gonna miss you, bro.